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www.youtube.com/watch?v=3leytj…
This song has been stuck in my head foreverrrr.
And it's helped me clear some things up

Hi..guys.
Listen.
(i'm probably going to regret this later)
I'm going to be leaving.
Not dA.
But this account.

I'm not sure when, but i got 2 months left in my subscription. I might leave in 2 months. I might leave later tonight. I'm not sure.
And i'm not telling anyone where i'm going.
Except a few close friends.

Alright.
Well, after thinking and thinking and THINKING.
I decided to leave this account for a new start.
I hate my gallery. None of it matches up. (i hate that) It's ugly. And i hate my art.
And i'm not going to scrap the whole gallery every time i don't like it. Too time consuming and a waste at that.
And even though many people tell me this isn't true, i KNOW there are those of you out there who don't like being spammed by my constant updates (journals, polls, arts etc.)
And i also know there are some people who don't like what i do.
So.
I'm creating a new account.
Where i can spam with updates all i want.
And draw Sparkledogs.
And Nazis.
And Sparkledog Nazis.

I'm also going to base it primarily around my PERSONAL ART.
I think this is necessary to help me get my self esteem up for my own art.
I'm also going to be totally revamping Venus.
Mayb a little. Maybe alot.
Maybe to the point where you can't even recognize her anymore.


So thats it.
If any of you really want to still watch me, i'll will still be watching most of the people in the "Special Box" i have down my page, so check them for a new watchers and you might find me lurking there ;3

To those of you i owe those badge commissions, depending on when i leave, i will refund you your 20 points if i don't do yours.
And if you do happen to find my new account, let me know who you are, and i'll make you your badge free.

Later.

To people who want commissions, that is ;-;

OBLIGATORY DAY-BEFORE-SCHOOL JOURNAL
This summer seems to have gone by very fast
It was a good one, albeit stressful.

I'm kinda excited for school; senior year, drawing inspiration/ethic returning, etc.
And i know almost, if not everyone reading this has already gone through their first week.
I'M LIKE THE LAST ONE IN THE FRIGGIN COUNTRY TO START.
Urgh.

Ok.
Uh, like the title says, i don't know how to say "no" to people.
I attempted to close my badge commissions in my last journal, but it seems that every time i post a completed badge for a customer, i get a new person who wants one.
Sigh.
I'm weak.
But anyways, to those of you who i still owe to, they're coming; they just might be a bit slower since i'll have school work now too.
Yeah.

Umeruhmuhm, last thing.
I think i realized why i don't like my art that much and love everyone's else more.
I had a mini epiphany, after thinking about this for a while.
It all has to do with OCs.
For those of you with original characters, you know that is probably your favorite thing to draw.
Your character. That you made up. Duh. Everyone loves drawing their characters.
And you can usually tell by people's artist comment.
I notice that alot of people talk in detail about their OC in the artist comment.
About their personality.
Or past.
Or some power of theirs.
Or something.
I see that as affection toward your own character. And when people don't write about them under deviations, they usually like to talk about them in general and tell others about them.
Artists love their original characters

Well.
I've never done that. Ever.
I don't ever recall in my history of drawing OCs, ever talking about them to others, or telling good backstories and such.
I just. Do'n think i've ever created an original character i loved.
Or was proud to own/created, if you will.
And i think that might be why i hate my art.
I don't have any characters i love, so i don't love anything about the art i make.

And now i'm depressed.
What does it take to create a character you love?
I'm at a loss.
Maybe it's a personality flaw i have.

And on that note, i depart.